Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Rememberance

She was as beautiful as can be.

She was Amazing.

She was simply blooming Continually all around every season


Like a Cherry Blossom Tree.


I will always Remember YOU Amy RIP.
You're on my mind, and in my heart.

Why now?!!?!

Why do women attach emotions so easily?



How can it be that almost every relationship I've ever been in has had some kind of issue. If it's not a mans insecurity then it's a boredom, or idiotic argument that gets mirrored back and forth until we call it quits. Why does it seem as if us women are made so delicately? Why do our feelings get hurt so easily? Why do men seem to be emotionless?

I just don't understand, and I know there really isn't an explanation for it either... But here I am at 12:16 am, wondering why I'm so in love with BEING IN LOVE.
Is there anybody else out there that thinks this way? that Love might have "no limits", but I dig deeper. I truly think we are how we're raised. Everyone has a type of love to them that means they're loved. If my mom calls me and tells me that she misses me, that's love. If my brother hugs me, that's love. If my partner gets super excited over something I've done for them, that's love. Some of us want to be cuddled, some of us want to be treated like a queen/king. Some of us just want company, and some of us want a best friend. Love has so many different meanings? Often times we should wonder, what it means to us, so when we get in a relationship we can know if it's going to either work or not. We can't change people, and we can only be ourselves as well. It's like trying to find the right puzzle piece out there in the world... It's just so hard, and it takes so long. Sometimes I hate having so many emotions, and I wish I was just emotionless- like a rock or something. Stiff and still, a pokerface 24/7. It's hard enough to put a smile on my face from day to day as the time ticks by, waiting forever to be ...

you finish the rest :-)

Saturday, April 7, 2012

October brought the leaves in a descending fall......



How can so many people just cut their ties with someone they love, and had in their life for a year(s)? i just don't understand sometimes.

"
I don't understand how one day you can say that you care about me love me that distance is the issue, I can agree on the distance and I just want to be your friend.I'm happy for you, I'm proud of you.
I'm always going to love you.
Little things remind me of you still. It makes me sad, but I'm here and you're there moving on of course and just being happy for you is where I need to be at in my mind, and my heart. If the future holds something between us the future will unfold that. I've come to terms even if you are the guy I wanna call every now and then, I hold back..."